Of Late Tension and Lost Trainers

“I know that you can be overwhelmed, and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed?”

“I think you can in Europe.”

Chastity & Bianca, 10 Things I Hate About You

How do you know if you’re stressed? Scratch that, of course you’re stressed all the time; it’s 2017 and we breathe stress like oxygen. How do you know if your stress levels are above usual, excessive, prohibitive?

There are plenty of things going on to cause me anxiety, after all. My viva is in two weeks and while I’m not exactly nervous about it, there is something rather daunting about facing down an exam of that magnitude. I’m currently working freelance in a couple of posts which is great for flexibility but not exactly the financial security to which I’ve become accustomed. The lease for my house is up in February and who wants to sign a new lease while they’re job hunting? Everything about my current state of being feels somewhat precarious.

I’m excited for this next phase in my life and my career, but I’d be more excited if I had a better handle on it. As of right now I have a canker sore on my tongue, a cupboard full of instant noodles, and a gym bag currently making its way around the greater Coleraine area, accidentally abandoned on a bus this morning (making this one situation where ‘exercise’ is not going to be an effective stress-busting solution). I’m feeling a little frayed, to put it mildly, and I’m looking forward to enjoying the perspective of distance. In the meantime, thank goodness for Rowena Murray, massage balls, Community on DVD, and chocolate Horlicks.

PS – if anybody sees a blue gym bag on the number 140 bus… I have a boxercise class tonight and I hear punching stuff is good for you now.

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Author: Danni

Glaswegian in Northern Ireland. Writer, PhD researcher, cyclist, camp cinephile.

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